didnt expect too much out of this, but it was really sweet and was alot better than i thouht it would be; katsura (fukuyama) has this psychological problem called 上がり症 (hypertension i think) due to a childhood accident. when he was five, his bicycle very nearly collided with a car and he suffered a broken bone. his childhood friend, shibata sou, then only six, had cradled him in his arms while waiting for an ambulance and had told him that as long that he was holding him he would be alright, and nothing bad will happen. after that, right up to high school, katsura would suffer anxiety attacks before his exams, archery examinations etc etc and would only calm down only when shibata enfolds him in his arms. until one day even that didnt work anymore..

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シナプセの柩II Synapse no Hitsugi II (konishi katsuyuki x nojima kenji)

was waiting in anticipation for the about 4 months for syanpse no hitsugi's sequel to be released in japan so that i could get it on the forum.

cant say i was disappointed, but i expected the sequel to be better x.x

the middle part of the drama was slightly rushed and messy, as aida saki tried to tie up all the loose ends of the story. at first, i thought kirishima was only pretending to have lost his memory, if it was so, it'll really be brilliant writing on aida saki sensei's part.

yet, the ending was rather unfinished, reminiscent of the borderline series, but it was just as impactful. we werent told whether kirishima will hand himself over to the police, higuchi has not found out that kirishima had willingly let himself be nagayama's accomplice in the past. he hasnt even found out that kirishima had fully regained his memory. but kirishima, with nojiken's voice, said this haunting last sentence: 湖の底には、もう、だれも沈んではいなっかた。

gaaa. so sad >< i wont be forgetting this series for quite some time XD

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おまえわ、愛を食う獣。Omae wa Ai wo Kuu Kedamono (ono daisuke x miki shinichirou)

this was alot of fun XD. for some reason, miki shinichirou always get to do very interesting characters. in this yakuza drama, he does the type of uke that i like very very very much. XD. one who openly admits his feelings for his seme but doesnt dumb down or lose himself to his seme after that. esp when his seme asks him if he would wait for him until he stabilizes as wakagashira of ichinosegumi, yuya's reply was : 待ってはいないけど、期待しているよ。[i wont be waiting for you, but i'll be anticipating it (your return)]

oooh. 最高だね。XD

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デッドロック Deadlock (yasumoto hiroki x nakamura yuichi)

aaaaah Q(^o^)Q

i cant find a way to write a summary of the plot w/o any spoilers, so i wont write one. the illustrations were so gorgeous that i got it despite the relatively unknown shinjin main cast.. (yasumoto hiroki did sado in bleach) they did pretty well, but nakamura yuichi's uke can be perfect with a little more practice hohoho~ didnt expect the dialogue, plot and story to be so brilliant and so dramatic. kept me awake for about 2 plus hours refusing to sleep till the end wahaha. and the ending!! i couldnt have predicted it. and it had to be a bittersweet ending, with a feeling as if the story hasnt quite been completed, like これから始まる when i know that there wont be a sequel. >< it's driving me mad, it really is.

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黒い愛情 Kuroi Aijou (midorikawa hikaru x hirakawa daisuke)

this title so fits this drama >_>. the entire 2 discs of the drama is so black and twisted that i shudder recalling it..

midorikawa breaks his stereotype of either a very sweet/explosive uke by doing a very very sado seme. his character is such a megalomaniacal freako that i have no idea what his uke (hirakawa daisuke) sees in him. (except that uke-san is slightly unbalanced and wonky up there, so..) their relationship is so warped that when they confessed their undying love at the end of the drama, i remain unconvinced. and unimpressed. it's so ironical that both of them are psychologists, when both are in dire need of professional help themselves.

midorikawa did a surprisingly good job as katou ryou, a control freak with a problem with his overriding dokusenyoku. (the type who would actually kill his uke if he found his uke uwaki-ing. o.o) hirakawa did this uke whom i didnt like, cos of his weak resolve and lack of resistance and spunk.

the bgm was nice and extremely mood setting, the jarring violin and piano piece scared the crap out of me when i was listening to it with my lights off. altogether, this drama's plot is solid and good enough to make you want to listen to it to the end, and therefore well worth the time spent on it, but i'll stick to lighthearted esuemu, thank you very much.

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執事の特権 Shitsuji no Tokken (sugita tomokazu x nojima kenji)

nojima kenji as a person who, although intelligent, has obsessive compulsive disorder (washes hands constantly) and an overpowering fear of human contact. no one is allowed to touch him without gloves. sugita does his seceretary, this character so perfect that one can never find a guy like him, even if one scourges the earth. and there's a super hilarious scene somewhere in the middle, which earned it a mention here XD

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シナプセの柩I Synapse no Hitsugi I (konishi katsuyuki x nojima kenji)

here it is: kirishima minato is currently leading a very miserable life. his mom left him when he was in high school. his father commited suicide when he was in university, by drowning himself after his small hospital got caught up in a scandal and got almost bankrupt. kirishima only managed to complete univeristy and become a surgeon due to the help of celebrated professor nagayama, whom he was very thankful to. but nagayama kyoujuu has an ulterior motive.. after kirishima came to work for him, nagayama demanded that all of kirishima's future research work and papers were to be publicised under his nephew's name. so nagayama's nephew got all the credit for kirishima's wonderful work. kirishima could not refuse, cos he cant go anywhere, but nor can he run away by applying to another institution as all his research papers were being taken away from him. furtheremore, nagayama was this hentai oyaji who demanded yaoi from him. and again kirishima had no choice but to relent. 8 yrs passed.

then one day, this surgeon higuchi youichirou from new york arrived, and he had a reputation for being being successful in many difficult operations. kirishima saw his chance to finally escape, and, when alone with higuchi, begged him to teach him his operation techniques so that he can, together with research he was secretly doing, apply for this medical institution in new york, far away from the influence of nagayama kyoujuu. in return, he will, well, agree to yaoi. higuchi agreed. so they met, at night, in the research lab, and higuchi imparted to him his techniques and even gave him some of his own old research data which gave kirishima a headstart on the work he was doing. they steadily grew to like each other.

Kirishima once told higuchi “shindara, kono yubi de kaibou shite kudasai.” Higuchi must have thought he was joking. kirishima collated his application and sent half of it to new york, when nagayama was away in canada.

when nagayama returned, he called kirishima to his office and threw the application in front of him. He had actually known what kirishima was up to and he had gone to new york to revoke his application. he then started to er, maul him, saying that he could destroy higuchi’s reputation anytime he want, he’s that powerful and influential. Unknowing to kirishima, he had called higuchi to his office at the same. Higuchi burst in on them, and was appalled at the scene. He then left the room in a temper, banging the door. After that, nagayama took a scalpel and left a wound on kirishima’s fingers, not too deep but serious enough to prevent him from practicing operating skills with higuchi for a good while.

It started to rain outside, with thunder and lightning. Kirishima staggers back to the lab in pain, looking for first aid, and finds higuchi there waiting for him. Higuchi reveals that he came back to japan only under the pretense of accepting nagayama’s job offer, he was actually sent here to as a spy, as the professors in US already suspected that nagayama was forcing kirishima to surrender his work under someone else’s name. he asks if kirishima really wanted to run away from japan and go to new york. Kirishima thinks dully to himself, that higuchi only showed interest in him becaused he was sent here to investigate the matter. He also remembered nagayama’s threat. So he told higuchi that he only wanted his research papers, and that he was nagayama’s ally. higuchi announces coldly that he prays that nagayama and kirishima will not suffer too much retribution, and that he would return to new york, Just before he left the room, he said “actually i..” and faltered, before saying “never mind,” and turning to leave. In his mind, kirihshima was begging him not to leave. When the door clicked shut on him, kirishima was left alone with all his hopes dashed. “itteshimatta. New work e iku yume mo naku natta. Ato wa moto no seikatsu ni modoru dake. [he left. The dream to go new york is also gone. All I can do is to go back to the life I had been leading before that.] Depressed, and having lost all hope, he opened the window, wind from the storm outside blowing into the room and scattering the papers. He wished to go back to the lake that he once lived beside when he was young and had nothing but good memories. Just as he placed one foot over the ledge, the door opened, and higuchi beginning his sentence with “yahari omae wa..” then the horrified “kirishima?” kirishima simply smiled “sayounara..” before disappearing out of view, and plunging down 5 storeys.

Kirishima didn’t die. He was cushioned before he fell, and miraculously only suffered only a broken bone. But when he awoke, he had a mentality of a young child, with no memories of his adult life. Apparently, he had gotten his wish. And nagayama kyoujuu dropped him fast when he found out that kirishima couldn’t be made use of anymore. Higuchi swore to bring him up and take care of him for the rest of his life. And the story,doesn’t end here. there’s so much more it. But I cant type anymore, my fingers hurt.

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BLdrama list: last updated on 01/04/07